The initial motivation of your every attempt doesn't last long as we hope. Actually ,after the 2 or 3 attempts to get something ,some part of you is getting bored .
but sometimes you still keep making efforts though half of you is giving up . Why ?
That's because you don't want to make yourself disappointed. You know yourself who historically kept making you disappointed since you were a child .
You just don't want to be hurt. but the half of you knows ,,
It's up to yourself . Maybe you can get it ,or maybe ..